It’s been a little over 4 years that I’ve been sober.
I thought I would take the time to express some gratitude for the 29 year old version of me who decided to give up alcohol.
I am grateful for the younger version of me who deeply desired to be sober.
I am grateful for the younger version of who made the decision to give up alcohol for one year.
Because of her, I’ve been able to discover new parts of me.
Some parts are beautiful and some are messy.
I’ve been able to gain new perspectives.
I’ve found writing as a way to express myself.
I’ve discovered my creativity.
And, on the flip side, I’ve found the patterns of my thinking.
I’ve found a new manifestation of my anxiety.
I’ve found OCD.
While the journey has not been easy at all, I wouldn’t trade it for nothing.
So thank you to the 29 year old Anina.
Thank you for listening to your inner voice.
Sometimes I lose sight of the things I’ve accomplished and worked on. While I am always going to be a work in progress, it feels good to take a moment and reflect on how far I’ve come. It still brings me to tears when I think about the struggle I had with alcohol and how I am now sober. I am not sure if I have the words to describe what comes up for me at this exact moment but I am grateful for that 29 year old version of me who gave up alcohol.
Giving up things that no longer serve you is not easy. But, I believe that when you do, you make space for new gifts and possibilities to come into your life.
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