So last month’s question was, “Can I go with the flow of things?” More specifically, can I exist with the frustration that my job gives me? And, can I also exist with feeling okay with my job? Can I coexist with it all?
I know the answer to those questions but I am afraid to put it out in the open.
But as we enter June, decisions need to be made. Decisions that I think I already made but haven’t made official. Big decisions that require more processing and more self-reflection.
For that reason, I’ve decided to deactivate my social media accounts for the month of June.
I’ve decided to do this because during May, I think I’ve reached a point where I am realizing what I can’t take anymore. I am realizing that the negatives of what I am experiencing are outweighing the positives.
The questions I ask myself are:
Can I imagine myself dealing with this for another year?
Do I want to continue in this for another x amount of years till the point that I am burnt out or all of this is affecting me mentally and/or physically?
I also find myself asking, ”don’t I deserve to find something that aligns better?”
Don’t we all?
The same way I’ve given up things that don’t serve me with past jobs and alcohol, why can’t I do this again with the new situation I am in?
As I reflect on that I am now remembering that the process of letting go of something takes time and self reflection. Sometimes it’s not straightforward.
This is part of the reason why I love writing because of these little connections and realizations I have.
So yes, big decisions need to be made and I will be taking the month of June to process it.
Holding Myself Accountable
I purchased a book called, “The Big Leap” and I plan on reading it during June.
I am feeling called to read this book because of the decisions I need to make and it might help me. I hope it does.
And, I am sharing this as a way to hold myself accountable to ensure I read it by the end of the month.
Also, I’ve always had an idea of sharing online the things I’ve learned from the books I read. Even though I don’t read as much, I’ve always wanted to push myself to read more because I enjoy learning new things. So the idea of sharing online what I learned from the books I read could help me to read more.
With all of that being said, I am thinking I can write a blog post on the things I’ve learned from reading, “The Big Leap”
We shall see but for sure I will read the book 100%. I’ll be sure to report back in my next monthly reflection blog post.
That’s it for the month of May! Let’s see what June has in store for me!
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